When you remodel a house the first step is demolition taking out the old and stripping away what no longer belongs. I couldn't help but compare it to what God does to us. It never occurred to me that one day God might start this process with me.
I always thought of God doing small things over time, but lately, I feel like a massive remodel. I feel bare and exposed like a stripped-down house, and the vulnerability is terrifying. I have never felt so afraid of being open.
If I sat and made a list, there is an unbelievable amount of things that were once central in my life that is no longer there. I have been trying so hard to figure out why I'm going through this remodel, and the only conclusion is He is making something new. The demolition made me acutely aware of how human I am. Which in turn helped me realize just how much I need God and how I am not in control. Being self-reliant isn't an option anymore.
Because without Him I can't make a single sound decision.
I feel an awakening within myself that I've never felt before. So with each new day, I take a deep breath and take it one step at a time. I'm learning to be intentional with my choices and emotions and the people in my life. I have felt the words deeply from Amanda Lindsey Cook's new song, "Now there's a dawn at every turn, You speak to me in new beginnings." God used some unwise choices to bring me back to Him and I will forever will be grateful.
Here's to new beginnings.
Stay Brave Friends.