Dive On In.
I came across a post on my Instagram feed a few days ago that really resonated with me. I have never read words before that described me so well. I have always had a hard time understanding myself and I have often wondered if other people feel the same.
It says: "When I get honest, I admit that I am a bundle of paradoxes, I believe and I doubt. I hope and I get discouraged. I love and I hate. I feel bad about feeling good, and I feel guilty about not feeling guilty. I am trusting and suspicious. I am honest and I still play games. I am convinced and I am confused. I long to be vulnerable, yet I remain my own barrier in doing so. I pursue and I retreat. I act like I don't care when I do. I don't always know the answers, but I usually pretend to. I say I trust God but in reality I would say I rely more on my own sense of self-protection. I'm messy. I'm learning. I'm imperfect. but. I'm content. I'm human. I'm His kid. He loves me. He's proud of me. He's not finished with me. to live by grace means to acknowledge my whole life story, the light side, and the dark. in admitting my shadow side I learn who I am and what God's grace means. my deepest awareness of myself is that I am deeply loved by Jesus Christ and I have done nothing to earn or deserve it."
This lovely piece was written by @wildflowerwritings or wildflowerwritings.weebly.com.
Transparent. That is what runs through my mind when I read this writing. It is so honest and I am only beginning to scratch the surface of what that truly means.
I had dinner with a friend not that long ago and she made the comment that I had changed. She quickly added that it was not a negative change but one where I was more open.
Why are we so afraid to be honest? To truly reveal ourselves?
I think that is a key Jesus tried to give us. He wanted us to be real. Jesus was real. He spoke with honesty.
So today let's be BRAVE and dive into honesty. Stop hiding and be yourself.
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