I know it's been a minute. Or a few months. I haven't kept myself accountable about writing. I feel like I have been in my own head for awhile now. It isn't a dark deep "in my head" but more of thinking too much about EVERYTHING.
The amount of overthinking I conduct on a daily basis would scare any normal person. It's crazy. My mind is full of tangled thoughts and ideas. It has been hard for me to concentrate on one specific thought.
Anyway I have re-emerged for the time being and I wanted to say hi. I hope that I won't leave after this post for four more months but if I'm being honest it could happen.
There have been a few times over the last four months I have had some sparks of inspiration to write but I never took the initiative. Have you ever wondered why you didn't do something? That's been me for the last several weeks. Why do we make the decisions we make? Why do we make the choices we make? Why do we choose the people we choose? And how does God tie into all of this?
My questions have been overwhelming lately. I have been asking a lot of questions. I wanted to share my curiosity because I think sharing is the best way to deal with anything we go through. That doesn't mean you share your intimate details with every single person you come into contact with but more so with those important people in your life.
I know I have said this many times before but I still don't feel like I have anything figured out. Should I or shouldn't I? As human beings do we ever have things figured out? I am 25 and I still feel like I'm waiting on something or is something waiting on me?
God has felt distant lately and I know the distance is on my end. It's comforting to know that regardless of my issues He is ALWAYS there. In the last couple of weeks, God has been speaking to me through messages about "the harvest" and serving. (I am including the link to the messages in this post.) My perspective has shifted and I am looking at my problems as more of a harvest. That hard work and tired hands are worth it. God is there through every circumstance. Every trial. Every problem. He is there. He is steady. He is constant.
I could use a little more steady in my life. Especially in my mind because it feels chaotic 99% of the time. I know this post might seem all over the place but that's where I am. There's no sense in pretending. Am I right?
I hope this encourages you today!
All my love, Meg